May 9th, 2008
red bull, prozac and change
Over the last few weeks change has come like a shadow in the night. In human language what this means is that it has come with stealth; largely undetected until it revealed itself in its entirety.
Although I’m usually quite decisive and fairly proactive, lately the energies at play in my universe have been as powerful as Red Bull on Prozac (wings with a smile and a hell of a lot of bounce). For this reason, sometime last week I realised that any attempt to resist them (the energies) would have been pointless, so I deliberately surrendered control and let them take me without force.
Today I write from the other side of change, it being here and all, yet I remain oddly uncertain about the exact nature of it, or the why of it for that matter. What I do know is that silence is a good place to hide when the noise of the world threatens to drown-out the small voice within me; that soft, knowing voice I have ignored too often in the past; the voice that knows when to hold on and when to let go; and the one that is much more sensible and wise than me.
I am told that everything is revealed in the fullness of time and if this is true, as I identify the specifics of the shifts that have just taken place, I’ll share them with you. For now though, please remain calm (return your seats to the upright position) and do not panic. I assure you that no physical changes (other than the colour of my hair) have transpired. Apart from being the same impulsive, sassy girl I’ve always been, everything’s all good inside candy.
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LOVE your writing style. Very honest and so visual. The metaphors paint an excellent picture. Thanks for sharing… take care.
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Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strain)….
I am not sure what kind of changes you are going through but I have been through a few myself. I am bipolar or “manic-depressive”. In the manic phase I have had racing thoughts and I know the feeling of needing to hide in silence when the noise of the world is too much.
Every one will meet some tough situation in their life. But you need to have that self courage inorder to overcome. i hope yo will achieve it
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i always wash down my prozac with red bull
and surrender is very underrated
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How cool are you. Love your blogs (have been cruising through past ones). And wanted to say a great big thanks for including me on your blogs of note… Wow. I’m flattered.
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right.
i am not panicking.
tell me when its over okay?
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Excellent introduction, it captivated my entrecard perusing and I became hooked. I love the language you speak as it appeals to the straight forward nature of keeping it real. Thanks for being you!
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Speaking of the language she speaks. My daughter jsut called me, poolside in another city, where she was reading the New York Times while watching her little sister at the local pool, and it seems a Ms. Tothills, language or Candyspeak has been made mention of … do tell Candy! Ali said it has something to do with words your editors put together that are unique to you!
Very cool! And fun to get a call from my 15-year-old saying, “Hey Mom, I think that Inside Candy Lady that you like is in the New York Times!”
Love you, Inside Candy Lady!
@anne: that’s great. I hope they give her lots of money.
I know so cool … she’s famous to 15-year-olds twice removed! (of course not so far removed because everyone knows that Candy and I spawned a 15-year-old in a past life!) I’m trying, still, to get a feed on the “blurb” in the Times, but am seeing my daughter on Monday and while poolside, she gnawed through the Times and saved me the clipping!
woohooo! seriously?!
rich… please don’t suspend me… money coming… promise
dave, suresh, jd, angel, charles, and sarah… thanks for reading me!
You’re welcome Candy
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It’s a pleasure.
I am worried about you!
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